Sometimes All I Can Say Is Wow

Wow what a whirlwind my life has been lately. Literally. Well that’s my life and a nice compliment to it was the night my best friend, my love, asked me to marry him. 

I think it’s fair to say that we really love each other, and we are both a little crazy, but together we make sense.

I’ve loved him since I was a little girl yelling at my favorite movie, “No! I will not marry that crazy boy.” When the casting director came on the screen and had my would-be married name. But I always knew I would. I remember when he would pass me notes in school asking me to go out with him, I would never mark no, I would write in my own, cute but not right now.

I love him now that we are grown; I love the good and the bad. I love the fiery fights and the slow dances in movie theaters. I know in my heart and through tests and trails that this is my best friend for life, and right now I couldn’t be happier.

How He Asked Me!

It was Sunday night and he was working and had had a tuff day, he had called several times to say I love you and let me know about his day. I was staying at my mom and dad’s for the weekend I hadn’t seen them in awhile (had a blast! BBQ story to come) and it was storming. I get a phone call from him he said he has a surprise for me tomorrow I said oh really? And he said yes and we said goodnight.

I curled up in bed and was watching the weather when he called me again and said come outside. I told him, “You know I’m at my mom and dads?” He said yes, come outside.

I walk downstairs open the door and peek out. There he is hopping out of his Jeep. He has the window rolled down with a beautiful song playing. I walk over to him looking at him and the sky that is stormy. He is staking and he is staring very hard at me.

Then he says, I love you, you are my best friend. (Lighting crashes and the wind picks up) He takes my face into his hands and my hair whips around he says I love you so much, do you trust me? I nodded yes, then he took a knee and pulled my ring off of my right hand and looked up at me and asked, “Will you marry me?’ I was shaking and starting to cry and he starred up at me as I said yes! He stood up and lifted me into his arms and it started to rain a little, we kissed. It was if the whole sky was crying happy tears for us, the world smelt better felt better, happy wonderful, not even words for it.

It really hasn’t sunk in. I’m really going to spend the rest of my life with my best friend. I’m so excited for the times we are going to spend together all of the laughing, the cooking, the cleaning, the places we will see, adventures, the fights, the families, everything, bring it on! I’m so happy.

Afterwards we sat outside in the storm and watched the clouds and the lighting in a metal swing, somewhere there was a tornado sweeping things away, but there we were two crazy people in love.

I'm Really Happy!! Updates to Come!

Sunshine, Lollipops and Rainbows!

He asked and She said YES!

This past Friday my friend Lyall, Lyall the Crocodile asked his beautiful girlfriend Margaret to marry him. And I and a bunch of friends got to be a part of it! Lyall told us all to meet them at 7 pm and he would bring Margaret there. The funny thing is that they went out to eat and were walking down town getting ready to meet us and Margaret has to go to the bathroom and wants to stop at other places and he keeps asking her to wait because he thinks this one place is open, so she does but right when they get to all of us she makes a bee line for the bathroom and misses all of us! He was so excited and nervous! (Thumbs up photo) So when she came back out she was looking around like hey I know you and you what going on? Ohhhhh. Now I missed the actual proposal, I was outside on a phone call, BUT I did see a video and I screamed outside when I heard clapping and screaming, she had said yes!! I’m so happy for them. We all had a good time joking around, Kelly the lumber Jack and his fiancé came down, and he decided to model his lady's purse for us.....no! it's a man bag!! The fun story is that Lyall said the ring was made with his great grandmother’s diamond, whose name was also Margaret who was married to Lyall’s great grandfather Lyall whom he’s named after. So here we have another pair of Lyall and Margarets! And the other kicker is that both Margaret’s have read hair!! I love it!!
In the video I don’t know if you can tell and as Shawn points out my audio isn’t going to be right, but Lyall is playing the piano for Margaret as we all celebrate around them. It truly was a happy day and a ton of fun. I was so happy I got to be a part of it! CONGRATS my friends!!!

Miss Amanda how do you feel today? Well, I feel like there is a huge hole in me and like I've gone to work without my pants.

Some of my thoughts on Love
I used to carry around notebooks asking everyone I knew what they thought love was. I have this crazy idea in my head because of my name, Amanda, it means, “Worthy of Love,” and I think that there is a lot to a name, and for mine I thought to be worthy of something you have to know what it is, so I had to know what love is and I had to be loving and loveable to have it. It was a pretty neat little project I just like to see what people say. Some of them were wise and heartfelt, some were funny. A lot of people have the same thoughts on love they just put it in different words for the most part. I’m talking significant other love not friendships, to which I believe, “No one has greater love than this, to lay down one's life for one's friends.” (John 15:13) which is why I’m picky about my friends ha ha.

I think that some people we are meant to love pass in and out of our lives to teach us something, to enrich our lives by being part of it, and we know when to let that go and hopefully we can smile at the end and be happy for the times we’ve had, but we just know it wasn’t meant to be. And then we move on to the next big adventure, or heartbreak, good friend or maybe something a little more.

But for my big idea of love I would have to agree with my mom for the most part, she has said, “love is not only a feeling but a choice.” It is so easy to love someone when they are being nice and loveable. When they are being fun and entertaining. But I believe that it’s true love when two people can not only say I love you, but I love you when you are being stubborn, I love you when you are not so much fun, I love you when you are mean, I love you when you are moody, I love you when at moment I don’t like you. I don’t think love has to be tuff, but I don’t think it’s always easy. It’s a choice, one I think you have to make one big time and then remind yourself when it’s not so easy, why you made that choice. And I think, I think, that the answer to that question is because something within my soul the very heart of me knows this person, knows that they will always be there for me, knows that they will get that joke, they will know my look, my laugh, my faces, what the tone of my voice means and that is when you remember why you made that choice.

Life's not so black and White

I’m on your skin; I’m in your veins.

When I’m gone I’ll be the bullet in your brain.

Should have known better it’d be all the same,

I’m sick and tired of all your little games.

Floating on top of the world we all have to fall,

What will you do when I don’t answer the call.

I’m the light in the darkness; you are the shadow on the sea.

Two things together that will never be.

Blah!!! Why do I have to have sad days? Where's my Freakin' sailboat?!!?!

So I'm feeling blue today, I'm usually a pretty chipper person and it's weird being unhappy. I mean I'm happy I'm good other than having to take my car in today to get the tire fixed. My heart just hurts sometimes thinking about life and the decisions that we make are they right? Does something need to change? Should I wait and give things time? How much freakin' time does anyone need? grrrrr! Yuck! I want to just walk away from everything and be happy, and layout in the sun again where nothing can bug me but a bug. grrrr I just want to be happy, I don't want much I don't ask for riches or fancy things just to be happy and safe. but I don't know how to make that happen. :( (oh and I want a house with a nice basement)

oh here is Josie the kitty that found me and Georgia we knew if we took her to a shelter she would probably be put down so we found her a home with my old boss. She looks pretty happy! She's a very sweet girl.



I'm listening to Owl City. It is really good a friend at work sent it to me when I was feeling pretty down one day and he's right it brightens me up! :) Here is one of my favorites and it's kind of how I feel now:

Rainbow Veins
High rise, veins of the avenue Bright eyes and subtle variations of blue Everywhere is balanced there like a rainbow above you Street lights glisten on the boulevard And cold nights make staying alert so hard For heaven’s sake, keep me awake so I won’t be caught off guard Clearly I am a passerby but I’ll find a place to stay Dear pacific day, won’t you take me away? Small town hearts of the New Year Brought down by gravity, crystal clear City fog and brave dialogue converge on the frontier Make haste, I feel your heartbeat With new taste for speed, out on the street Find a road to a humble abode where both of our routes meet The silver sound is all around and the colors fall like snow The feeling of letting go, I guess we’ll never know Cheer up and dry your damp eyes and tell me when it rains And I’ll blend up that rainbow above you and shoot it through your veins Cuz your heart has a lack of color and we should’ve known That we’d grow up sooner or later cuz we wasted all our free time alone Your nerves gather with the altitude Exhale the stress so you don’t come unglued Somewhere there is a happy affair, a ghost of a good mood Wide eyed, panic on the getaway The high tide could take me so far away VCR’s and motorcars unite on the Seventh Day A popular gauge will measure the rage of the new Post-Modern Age Cuz somewhere along the line all the decades align We were the crashing whitecaps On the ocean And what lovely seaside holiday, away A palm tree in Christmas lights My emotion Struck a sparkling tone like a xylophone As we spent the day alone