This past week has been a whopper. I had an allergic reaction and had to go to the ER twice, no idea what it is other than something I ate. I have never been more aware of my tongue or throat in my life. My tongue swells up and looks like an octopus tentacle and gets 3 large white bumps down either side and my throat gets tight. :( My chest, back and arms get red and swell also, I think that may be a side affect of the steroid I am on now also. I get a little anxious when I am by myself I just have to tell myself to be calm, pray and I can breathe I am all right. In my head I keep calling myself silly willy. You can breathe silly willy, you are just fine, be calm and I am usually alright. I am going to be so happy when this is all over and either this feeling fades and life gets back to normal and we know what it is or I'm just more careful with what I eat or do. I've lost like 10 pounds in the last week due to lack of sleep and eating I think. I'm really trying to not get a cold or anything so that it will give my throat time to be fine. My family has been amazing taking me to the ER and meeting me there. Papa Monkey's grandpa took me on the snowiest day this year and I will be forever grateful to him. I love them so much and am thankful that they love me. My sweetie keeps me calm and my mind off of my tongue, this weekend we played video games and went shopping and I helped him rearrange his house. I thought several times that my tongue was swelling and we would stop and he would put his arm around me and say lets give it a minute if if gets worse I'll take you in and we would sit and watch TV and everything would be okay. I am very thankful for him, he himself is a very calm person and that is soothing.
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